Today's Class

Today in class, the students had to present and break down a certain chunk from the book "Fahrenheit 451". Though my group did not get to present today, I found this assignment to be difficult. It was hard for me to break down my assigned chunk with my group. By the end of the class, the group knew and could summarize the chunk we were given. But, I was frustrated that I couldn't do it on my own. And I know that I wasn't the only one struggling because some of the groups that presented didn't do so well. I hope mine does well tomorrow even though my only job will be reading the text and making the annotations on the computer. The entire lesson was about annotating the text and breaking it down so you know what is going on. I struggled with this which was a wake up call for me. Even though I am considered college ready, I don't believe I am ready for college since I can't break down a high school text independently. I'm not worried though, I'll manage. Hopefully by next year, I'll be able to break down difficult texts on my own. 

The gym

Today was the first day that I went to the gym. I've never felt so much pain in a long time. I was struggling to do everything. I mean that was the reason that I was at the gym. I need and want to become stronger. But my god, I know it's difficult, but I was doing the easiest things and was still struggling. After lifting weights I couldn't even put my arms straight. I still can't put my arms straight this very moment. And today was just arms and chest day. Tomorrow is leg day... I was told that hurts even more. I might not be able to walk after tomorrow. I always knew that I was weak and skinny. But after seeing what other people can do, and seeing what I can do, I have to make a change. People have been making jokes for too long about me being skinny. Hopefully it'll all be worth it when I look even better then I do now in multiple months. And I look pretty good now so... I'm gonna be just gorgeous. The only thing bad about trying to work out, is that I have to watch what I eat. And I love to eat so this might be a problem. But it's whatever, I'm looking forward to feeling the pain tomorrow.. I guess